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On This Beautiful Page You Will Find Some Poetry That I Have Writen...It Is All Deep Feelings That I Have Gone Threw At Some Point In My Life..May It Be The Past..Or The Present..More Poems Of Mine Will Be Added ThroughOut The Year....Enjoy ~~**This Page Still UnderGoing Changes**~~ Walking Around Here Jen My hands hurt so badly As I walked into you A higher light to see Who would have ever knew I wondered about this day When would I be alright No one around as I walked This day turned into night Jen ~Secret Tear~ Secret Tear She followed me here I kissed her goodnight As she let in the light She kissed away my fear Silently keeping that secret tear |
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~Thoughts Of It~ Why you gotta be so kind He lost his patient She lost her mind The things he did locked up in that cage Blood driped out All the girls full of rage My dear why are you sorry What was it you've done I seen you kill that bird Suffocation looked like fun How could you do this Things change he said So this is what you want Needing me dead When summer comes I will not be seen I'd reather not think of you So what if I'm mean The angels came back Came back to that place They left me some blood In a tiny little space I knew he was lieing I knew he was lieing I can not be dieing I can not be dieing I asked them a question The girls all said You are not dieing Your already dead |
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~She Says~
She says she has no worries She says she does not hurt She crys at night in pain As he slides His self down her skirt She prays she will not scream As everything in her dies But all she sees is him And all his fucking lies She Can no longer feel as strong She says she can not move She wonders if shes safe What the hell was he trying to prove She says she has no worries She says she does not hurt Yet silently she Lays there breatheing While he buttons up his shirt Shes Frozen There Just greaving As he tells her shes a bitch He shuts the door behind him And he just leaves ~*Strength*~ I miss him Somtimes I almost believe That Ive forgotten everything Then there he is Reminding me of what I try not to remember Back and forth it goes Spinning in my head No more I say to myself No more of this wanting No more of this needing Being alone I say is my fate Excepting this is what Im pushed to I keep telling myself I dont love him But deep down I know its not true I know he doesnt love me though And never will again But Ive learned to live with that Sometime tears still fall from my beautiful eyes But its alright because this is my fate This is what I am Im not that sad anymore At times I miss the little things I try to keep myself busy so I cant think of him He hurt me And yes I blame him I dont want to but I do Im tired of wishing And hoping someday it'll be different for me Just wanted to be loved by someone Other then the ones I dont love back But thats how it goes You wish only to be loved your whole life Then you are Just not by the one person I truly love ~She Her Me~ This night it hurts Hurts so bad I can not sleep I feel so sad She could've gone So far away I almost broke down On This shitty day Never felt so scared Never felt such fear I could have died Thank god she was near Sometimes I wonder Wonder how it could be Why she was the only one there When things didn't go so great for me I wanted her never to leave I wanted it all to fine Why was she saveing me Why was she so kind ~Never Knew~ That night I layed there dreaming I could've touched the stars What ever I was about No one really cared I thought to myself A thousand times How is this possible My life was going so fast Spinning with no control Like nothing really mattered But it all mattered I wanted to cry I was already falling So far away I never knew I never knew |
| ~Always And Forever~ That girl With all her dreams and images She looked at me as I stared within Her I truly saw Heaven On earth as she smiled at me One touch Just one single touch Was all I hoped for in this perfect moment of ours Silently she steped closer twards me I spoke no words ,Nor did she One lift apon Thoes fingers of silk She glided herself down my face Could two souls whom waited what seemed like an internity Had finally found each other? My past disapeared My Future was never born Now was what I was With her I had everything in just a trance of fate I still hear her soft footsteps walking twards me How could I let her slip away is the cerse I wear over me The day her eye's lost that glow as she pulled the knife out Was the day my heart suffercated in air Our love will always last forever we said Yet my soul with out hers will be dead soon For I could never live with no heart Which she will carry with her Always & Forever ~Screaming Inside~ (This poem is being screamed) WHY MUST I LIVE THROUGH THIS SHIT WHY MUST I TRY TO STOP MYSELF FROM CRYING WHY DID HE LEAVE ME HERE WHY DOES HE LOVE ME ONLY WHEN I'M DIEING WHY CAN'T I NEVER GET HIM OUT OF MY HEAD WHY WON'T HIS IMAGE JUST LET ME GREAVE WHY THE FUCK ISN'T HE HERE WHY THE HELL WON'T HE JUST LEAVE SCREAMING INSIDE SCREAMING ALL ALONE MY MIND IS SO DISTANT I FEEL LIKE A FUCKING STONE WANTING HIM NEEDING HIM THERE WHY COULDN'T HE JUST SEE WHY WOULDN'T HE JUST CARE THE THINGS I THINK THIS EVIL ELEGANCE GOING THROUGH MY MIND I COULDN'T BE AS GENTAL I WOULDN'T ACT AS KIND WHY MUST I LIVE THROUGH THIS SHIT WHY MUST I NEVER STOP SEEING I NEVER STOPED THINKING OF HIM WHY MUST IT ALL JUST BE BEING ~Tears Of No Return~ I ask of myself no more harm I say to myself Please don't cry I watch everything fade away Someday I fear I will die I speak to others no more Locked away in my room all alone My mind my bones so sore I wish to be strong made of stone There is no way out for me I have seen the future you see And what will come in fate to be These tears of mine shall never return Yet in my body my heart my soul One day I will see One day I will learn I want to fall away I want to go Yet no one will ever understand No one will ever really know |
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~Feeling~ I still feel his heart Fluttering next to mine I wish everything was alright Completely,perfectly fine I scream In tears for it to go away I cry and cry But It always seems to stay This hurt This pain will never disapear I can't remember who I am I only live in fear I want to be loved People ask how I've been Sad and lonely is me Wrapped inside darkness once again No one can understand No one wants to know I pretend to be okay Its so hard to put on this show I can never find my way back Silently wondering inside my head I pray some day I will be happy But for right now I feel nothing but dead ~Hurting InSide Dreams~ When will my tears taste pure Once more inside my lips Always holding past my dreams Might she always kiss my forehead Might he never touch my face When will his nails uncut My never having lust free again The one whom I wear around My Throught Who stool my virginess from me Such young helpless hands He grabbed me He touched me He hurt me A they watched my body lay among That alter He expects my caringness T strive to slice their thorns out uppon my vaines She lifted my naked heart He tied it down His transparent tongue slithered Through out my blood Why were they making me breathe Why was I letting them? ~Hurt Silence~ I can't understand why my heart aches everytime he talks I can't understand why I cry everytime he leaves I don't know why he never wants me to call anymore Why does he always hate me even when she greaves Not that I am thinking of him in thoes ways Not that I am wanting him through endless days I can't stand the thought of even touch I can? God it just hurts me inside It is not nothing except pain What is it he's trying to cut out of me What is it hes trying to gain I'm screaming inside myself over his selfishness I feel like I could die and not even have him care Night I think why is this why How can I keep this suffering within me to bare Am I stupid Am I blind Am I insane Am I not kind Theres nothing I like in him Theres nothing I care about Yet why the hell do I still think of him Why must I always live in doubt *Takes a deep breathe* *Closes her eyes* *Picks up a picture* *Drops it* *Falls to the floor* *siiiiiilllllleeeeeeennnccceeee* |
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| ~Lost~ Look out the window my child Look at the stars See thoes helpless people Whom wish they could fly to mars She called my name just once Where are you my baby Jen They cryd so many tears Has he writen my will in pen I wondered what had happened This could have not been true I never seen it coming I never ever knew Why could't I Realize Why wouldn't I see This was not my future What the hell was happening to me Tears ran down my face As I saw what all was lost I killed my only being And this was the tradgic cost Look out the window my child Look at the stars See thoes greaving people Whoes loved ones were killed in cars ~Can You See What I See~ Paint My Hair Red Paint My Heart Black Make My Skin Pale Let My Knuckles Crack I Lay Here Simple I Lay Here Plain Teared Filled Eyes Full Of Pain My Body Is Empty My Body Is Sad I Am Trembling I Make Everthing Around Me Go Bad Scared A Bit Frightened From Letting In Toss And Turn Through The Nights So Miserable I Have Been They've All Gone Away So Far Away I Am Left Here My Child In Me Silently Will Stay I Am Numb ForEver Is Such A Fuckin Lie I Am Back Again In This Nothingless State Here I Live Alone I Live Alone Confused I Die ~Dreams Of The Night~ I silently fell asleep Wrapped inside the dark Dreaming away in my mind As I layed there in that park I kept running and running Never ending the chase They always tryed to hurt me Apperently that wasn't the case I wondered why I was breathing I wondered why I was here I wanted him to be with me Why wasn't he never near My father was so worried My mother just stood and cryed They all thought I was dreaming But what if I really died My image always seemed to change Slowly I was fading away I couldn't figure out who I was I didn't know how to stay Finally that day just came I walk out of that house of pain No one wanted to see me leave They pretended it was still the same I never came back that day I told myself it would be alright I silently fell asleep Wrapped inside the night |
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~Always Knew~ You say goodbye to your love He walks out the door for work You walk into the kitchen He calls you on his cell phone Just to tell you that he loves you You can't hold back the tears Of this you already knew You hang the phone back on the wall He continues to drive to work Washing the last dish of the morning As you rince you start to cry He gets out of his car walking twards the building Thinking of his one and only as he starts to die You hold on to yourself Slowly sliding down the counter wall Both or you stare deeply into each others souls As your phone rings depriving yourself from this call You never pick up the phone Just laying there on the kitchen floor Praying Your one true love Will come to you walking through that door He said he would always be there He said he will always love you He knows that deep down you will always be alright But of this you always knew ~This Night~ I was doing so good When it all begain I was fine As I stood there Seeing it all I saw him I heard them all talking and telling their secrets I couldn't talk to anyone Inside my head I was crying sI walk into this room o badly I tryed to be alright I tryed to stay numb I wanted to be under water I sure the hell didn't want to be there It was like it all mattered Trying to be good Trying to be perfect So much was set in front of me This goddess This evil This sadness This unknowingless state of mind When I left this place I couldn't understand a single thing I thought we were all dead I didn't realize I was still breathing This hurting and sadness must all have been inside my head |
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